Things I like.

March 31, 2012

A compilation of things I like.  Hey, maybe some of you like to do these things to, let me know.  Make your own compilation of things you like.  I find it quite relaxing and fun.  I will periodically keep adding to it.

Nostalgia critic videos

Watching beauty guru videos

Riding bikes around the neighborhood

Watching studio session recordings

Listening to soundtracks

Blogging, when I get around it and I am in the mood

Reading interesting books

Watching Glenn Beck back when it was on

Reading Harry Potter

Fixing my hair like crazy when someone attractive is around

Playing DDR

Watching the news when I am in a newsy mood

Playing Zelda with a friend or family member

Dancing in my room or house like a crazy person

Shopping with money

Sending and receiving funny picture messages

Warm baths

Waking up peacefully in the morning


Learning American History

Playing the french horn and getting better at it

Watching Disney movies

Talking about toots

Wearing my snuggie that my sister got me


When my hair looks good

Being in a good mood

Going to Village Inn with my friends and having my favorite waiter Collin

Tooting in secret places without people knowing

Putting on show choir make-up and doing show choir hair

Being in show choir

Writing on marker boards

Listening to MUSE

Singing in the shower, I have only developed this interest recently

Cleaning up the basement and finding cool photos and papers from forever ago

Spring time

Attractive men who are not jerks

My awesome church with awesome pastors

Playing music too loud

Putting on clothes that make you feel fantastic

Going to Disney World

Playing french horn with play-a-long books or Smart Music

Playing with symphonies

Taking walks with my mother and dog Snickers

Talking and hanging out with my sister

Playing upright bass  with jazz ballads because I love how it feels

Playing with my dog Snickers

Making fun of my dog Snicks while playing with her

Listening to music from the Disney Parks

Playing the electric bass guitar

Doing projects with my dad

My many creepy guy obsessions

Laughing about goofy things


God has blessed me with many great things this year and my whole life.  Those suckish insecurities, worries, and depression do not control my life.  I have grown up, I have learned to let God control my life, along with myself.  There’s no doubt that I will falter, that is called being human.  I try my best to be God-centered, and that is what God wants.

Senior year has really been great.  Yes there have been a few stumbles and falls (not literally, I did not slip at all this winter, that is two years in a row!) but in general, my senior year has been a great one.  Friends have been a blessing, senior stuff is really great, bonding with the senior class, show choir being absolutely amazing, marching band awesomenessss, my sister moving back home with my new niece, being accepted into the army, discovering myself, setting up my senior recital, being involved in my church worship band., the whole works.  I bless these peacefully bliss times greatly, and thank God for everything he has given me.  It is only fair that I have an amazing senior year, because I am sooo nervous for basic training in June.  I have a big feeling that I will be tested (physically, mentally, emotionally, and religiously) there.  I pray for God to be on my side, so it should be alright in the end, he has plans for me.

But really, I love not freaking out about things.  The middle school problems and issues are gone, and I avoid getting into them.  Yeah maybe I am not the cooolest person to hang out with or something, but guess what?!  The cooool kids that everyone seems to like, guess what?  They ditch people, create stupid drama (hate that word, I sound like a petty teenage girl), and always find a friend that is cooooler than you.  I sometimes fall into this trap of wanting to hang out with the cooool/fun/”accepting” people.  I have learned to stick to my guns and stay true to my friends who do not lie, back stab, or find coooler friends.

Another thing…guess what CHICAS!??! Stop throwing yourself at guys.  Gain some confidence, put on some decent clothes, be yourself, and stop faking in front of guys.  It is really frustrating, for both guys and girls.  It is corny, but…Moddest is Hottest, seriously.  A girl can look just as cute (or better) in slightly longer shorts, a not plunging neckline, not skin tight clothes, and cleavage everywhere.  Showing some leg and chest (not breasts) can be flattering and cute, and that is all it should ever be.  It should not be sexy or revealing.  I honestly do not know how girls feel comfortable in those clothes, I feel dirty and awful.

Yes, society makes it seem like guys are only these horndog pigs who want boobs, butts, and a tiny waist.  Guess what, it is not always about sexy?  It is about have a clean and presentable appearance filled with confidence and having a personality that you are proud of.  You will feel better about yourself in the end, trust me.  I have never dressed revealing, I do not flirt with guys, I am not fake around them and I still get asked to school dances and have guy friends.  It is really not a big deal.  I wish girls did not want constant approval from disgusting guys.

How you catch them is how you keep them, remember that.

Alright, that is enough for today.  I am finally getting back into the blogging mood, yay!



Thunder Storm Rambles

March 30, 2012

Hello again, sorry for not posting in a while.  I’m not sure who I am sorry to, maybe myself?  It’s raining, thundering, and lightning.  I freaking love it. I like it the best when I am in my room in the dark listening to it.  It’s so much better.  That was a good thunder.  I have always been afraid that the trees that are teetering on top of my house will someday crash into my room.  If that happened I hope that I just die.  I do not want to live with permanent tree bark in my body, but that would be a cool story.  I just do not want the pain of it happening.  The hail is slightly bothering me though.  It keeps making sounds similar to a tree branch creaking.  It needs to stop, immediately.

Sometimes I wish I was better at conversation.  That people would feel relieved when they were around me because I am easy to talk to.  I feel like that is not the case.  I have one friend, Lauren, where conversation is soooo easy, and a few acquaintances that are easy to talk to.  Like with so many of my “friends”, it is still difficult to carry on decent conversation.  Vocalizing my thoughts and looking at things in a way that other people find funny is apparently difficult for me.  What made me so awkward and incompetent of normal conversation?

Okay, now look, I am not some social reject.  I have friends, and I can talk.  I just always feel like my conversation is forced out of me, posing as someone else to make others feel good.  It never ends up making real relationships, and it tires me out.

We have bee discussing posing in church these past couple weeks.  I found it quite interesting.  I have only ever related posing to the classical skater punk and middle school emo kid (sadly, I was one of those for a short time).  Now it’s an entirely different way.  Sometimes in show choir I feel the need to act super girly for everyone else.  It’s not that I am posing necessarily, but I just let my girly side let loose during show choir.  It is just easier to be girly there, than anywhere else.

I do not see what is wrong with applying certain parts of your personality to the situation.  People automatically assume that if you do not act the same everywhere you go and to every person you meet, that you are a complete fake.  That is not true at all.  You see it everyday where people go to work as a boss, and they are professional and boss people around, even though that is not their normal daily personality.  Does that mean they are a fake for being this way?  No!  It just means their are applying their professional and commanding side of themselves during work.  Then they might go to an evening party later and act a little more flirtatious and fun.  That is because it is the appropriate time to act this way.

Some people cannot grab this concept, honestly.  Like my soldier training sessions we have a member who has strange mannerisms and responds in creative and cooky ways.  That is fine and dandy, but not for the military.  My goal when I go to basic training is to be invisible.  He is setting himself up for failure because he acts goofy and his normal self around all these sergeants and he is going to be constantly made fun of for it.  When I go to these training sessions, I bring my tougher side of me out.  I am a strange person at times and act goofy and have fun, but people need to learn to control their personality.  Not in a fake way, but controlled.  I do not see what is so wrong with that.

Oh man, I am blubberriinn, I need to watch some nostalgia critic then go to bed.  Screw you letter proposal for advanced composition, I am doing my own thannngg.

By the way, I think this whole exercising thing is really working well for me.  I love me some endorphins, then I am all happy and way more social and fun.  Plus I feel better about my bodayyyyyyyyy.